right now i don't really know how i feel... i feel a little ugly. i feel a little fat. i feel a little confused. i feel a little scared.
i've been thinking.. about my whole life- running every significant events that i've been through in my mind.. my days in st nicks, my days at tp, my days at mtv, xiaoyi's wedding, my 21st bday, my first real job, lena's death, family dinners, slumber parties with close friends, precious moments with my boy, christmas with the family.. everything that meant something just reoccur in my head. it's giving me a migraine... i smile at the thought of some, my heart aches at others.. it's a bitter sweet feeling..
it's so cliche when people say treasure what you have at the moment, cos once that moment pass you by, all that is left are mere memories... it sound so lame to say it but i totally agree with that.. the dearest of dearest memories can only be kept in my heart and replayed in my mind..
i don't know why i'm so bloody emo. damn irritating isn't it? i'm annoyed myself. haha.. sigh.. i wonder what i'll be like 10 years down the road. maybe i would have died already.. who knows.. life is so fragile..
posted by Melissa @ 10:21 PM
