lena and i may have drifted a little after college, but like i said before, good friends pick up from wherever we left off. and that's what we had.
life is so uncertain and fragile. this incident has made me appreciate the people around me more. friends and family should never be taken for granted. you'll only feel the pain when one is lost.
i met up with the st nicks girls on wed night. we wrote our last words for lena. the body will be back in about a week's time. till now i still cannot swallow the news. maybe i need closure or something. i hate that i keep crying whenever i think of her. i don't want this to happen. i don't want to believe that she has left us all.
i don't have the mood for anything. i can't even concentrate at work. i'm scared that i may lose control of my emotions at work. the stress isn't helping either. so much has been happening at work. i feel like i can't handle it anymore. there are times when i wonder if i should just go. walk away from my job.
i guess i'm just lost now. i don't know what to do. and i'm scared.
posted by Melissa @ 9:44 PM
