if mutant powers can give happiness, happiness would be mutated.
darling,
*hugs*what happened to the you we knew. don't tell me sadness has always been inside hibernating, opportunistically waiting for the moment to strike. you know you are stronger than that. for all the things that came your way these years, you have rode through them always emerging stronger. so many times i look at you and know you will be alright. you have the looks, the charisma, the intellect, the personality, the warmth to make it in this seemingly harsh world. but more importantly, you have the inner beauty of faith, goodness and kindness that makes you so so special. don't kill that part of you. happiness is something you own already, haven't you realised? you are loved and desired just as you are.
however, if external circumsatnces are breaking you up, its time to evaluate how much of yourself are you willing to give. time to evaluate the situation and give yourself to worthy things. after all you only pass each day once.
by the way, i think its harder for mutants to be happy. who wants to be mutated. do you really want a blue face with red horns. no, thank yu very much
love u babe. see you in a month's time.
hi debbie,
i'm at a lost for words. honestly i don't know why i'm feeling like that.. i don't want to.. at this point of time in my life, i'm feeling kinda numb. maybe it's just a phase i'm going through. i'm also very affected by what just happened. i try to think of it in a better light that in a way, she's luckier than us cos she gets to see Jesus first.
i hate that i cannot take control of my life and it's really pissing me off. it's hard to be strong you know. these days, i just don't feel like talking about anything anymore.
i remember when i was 14, i was really closed to this guy who was 8 years my senior. he told me never to lose myself when i grow up. he said he loved seeing how i lived my life at that point of time. i didn't quite understand him then. but now i'm beginning to see what he means.
you know how i'm pretty uptight sometimes.. and i'm scared not knowing what the future holds for me. i keep talking to Jesus and i'm trying to keep my faith knowing that He is in control.
i can't wait for you to come back. i'm getting really tired.
posted by Melissa @ 12:24 PM
